hmms. i think a lot these few days.. alot alot.. i never think so much before.. thursday is the day i never feel before and so sad before.. i will not forget that day.. i feel so so down and depressed even now i thinking about it, my tears cant stop dropping.. i dunno why i am doing this? i know the feeling of been hurt but why am i doing this to someone who care and concern for me.. why? why am i doing this? i dunno.. my heart just tell me he is not the one for me... everything happen too fast at the beginning and i thought i can adapt but again i cant... i really dun wanna hurt anyone but i did it.. i really doesnt mean it.. if i have a choice i wish this thing will not happen and i will not let it happen.. i hurt too much people and now is my retribution.. i dun worth anyone to care for me.. i dun even feel worthy to myself.. why? i hate to hurt people but why am i doing now to them? i really hate myself.. i really do.. i cant feel myself anymore.. i never feel so lost of myself before.. even though i noe what i want know and what my true feeling is and who i really want but i still dun feel myself.. i dun worth anything.. i am so worthless.




*who can help me find back myself?*
*is u but u dunno it*
*i am not worth it*