busy working this few days.. nth much happen in my life.. haix.. heard a very bad news this morning.. i shall not reveal anything on blog.. i am feeling so down now.. i really hope everything is going to be fine.. but... i gonna miss him.. i will miss him alot.. he is still my loved one forever..
I JUST WANNA SAE I LOVE U SO MUCH.. DO U NOE? haix..

hmms.. time to update again.. haha.. this few days have so much fun.. haha.. especially on wednesday. haha.. let me update day by day again.. haha

Wednesday 23 August:


last day of school wif my W26G mates.. haha.. i will really really miss them lots man.. took quite a number of pictures wif them.. haha.. but i will display only some.. hehe.. we went sakura buffet after school. haha.. we ate lots of food and we stay there until it closed.. haha.. we do so much stupid things there.. took alot of stupid photos.. haha.. i really enjoy myself there we them.. THEY ROX MY LIFE!! hmms.. but me and pauline did went ard walking half way through it coz we were so FULL!! haha.. so go walk walk.. went nydc find my xiao dajie.. haha.. then saw him.. hmms.. i long time nv seen him since after that thing happen.. its kind of awkward but i really want him to be fine.. wish we can get back to the starting.. but i think he still need some time.. haha.. then went mos to help jaysher bought milkshake then went back to sakura.. haha.. i sneak food out for jaysher also.. da bao quite a number of food for her.. haha.. then after that we went to taka outside there seat.. we took pictures and they started to splash water on each other.. haha.. onli me and susanti nv kana.. coz we ran like hell.. haha.. we ran to the road junction to hide from them also.. it is so funny lo.. haha.. i really enjoy that day alot.. moshi cried because she cant bear to leave us.. sayang moshi ok.. we will definitely have lots of gathering.. our friendship will not fade ok..

Thursday 24 August:

hmms.. nth much to do coz i haf to work.. haha.. but i work afternoon shift.. hmms.. not as busy as fri night.. just love to work wif jaysher and alan.. they can really make the working atmosphere so good.. haha.. hmms.. went and meet pris after working for movie.. haha.. went and watch snakes on plane and love wrecked.. haha.. snakes on plane is nice but the snake a little fake lo.. haha.. love wrecked is so funny la.. haha.. is hilarious.. haha.. went home after that.. chat wif her alot on the way home back.. JUST LOVE HER!!

Friday 25 August:

I sleep until 2 plus then went out and meet jaysher for movie.. haha.. went and watch CHAI-LAI ANGELS.. haha it is very very hilarious la.. haha.. it is so different from charlie angels.. this is much more funny then it.. it is more like a comedy.. haha.. then after that went and walked around at taka then off to work le.. so busy that night but luckily we have enough stuff.. haha...and also alomst all girl stuff lo.. hehe.. then i reach home ard 3 plus..

Saturdat 26 August:

heex.. work afternoon shift again.. haha.. also a busy afternoon and we went off at 6pm.. haha.. went and have korean food wif susanti that evening.. haha. we walked around so many place but still ended up back at heeren.. haha.. we ate alot lo.. haha.. then after that went to meet viien a while.. haha.. she is meeting someone again.. haha.. she seems SO HAPPY. haha. then we went to taka coz susanti want to buy someting from FANCL.. haha.. she ATE ICE CREAM AND IT IS SWEET.. haha.. surprisingly she ate alot of sweet stuff that day.. she herself feel so incredible.. haha.. then went to wheelock coffeebean and slack.. haha.. saw weiling and becks.. hehe.. so coincidence lo.. and we have really fun by talking alot crap and joke.. really cant stop laughing when i am wif her.. haha. LOVE U FORVER!! and we took neoprint that day also.. finally i took neoprint since after F4 outing.. haha.. feel so weird.. cant really think of poses to do.. haha.. reach home ard 11 plus

Joke OF THE DAY: PAK CI AND RED SHIRT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WAHAHA!!!!!

haha.. today nth much., i slack at home... finally can seat down and watch my tv.. i long time never watch tv le.. haha.. sometimes slacking at home is good.. feel so relax.. haha.. gtg now.. i wanna watch my vcd.. tata!!

*fantasy i love u*

*reality is cruel*

hmms.. update update.. haha.. now in class.. today last day of school already.. I WILL GOING TO MISS MY W26G ALOT MAN!! LOVE THEM REALLY LOTS!!

TO W26G:

really happy to be in the same class wif everyone of u.. i enjoy the laughter u all bring to me and the joy you all have created.. i really enjoy this 4 months and 6 days wif u all.. i will not forget the memories we have whether issit in our daily lesson or our outing.. i think i will really miss u guys alot..

Love,
jOycEEy

haix.. really dun like the feeling of changing class. haix.. but this is life.. we just need to live wif it and adapt it.. haha.. i really enjoy MOnday lesson alot.. haha.. the last lesson of communication.. haha.. we get to create a game or a video and my team we did the game.. haha.. we really have alot of fun playing the game and it is REALLY VERY FUNNY!! haha.. those who nv come that day really miss the fun.. thanks ms vicky wong for treating us delicious canadian pizza.. haha..
but lazy me nv went school ytd.. and unfortuantely only 10 people turn up.. haha.. i went to watch the break-up instead.. it is really a nice movie but is more on verbally amusement.. haha.. then went sakae sushi wif weeshen.. loll.. i think i really cannot eat buffet.. haha.. coz not worth it!! then went to meet my SISTARH viien.. haha.. went ate swenson but i nv eat.. just have a drink.. haha.. then walked back to her house wif her.. chatted alot on the way back.. haha
going to eat sakura buffet later.. haha.. buffet again.. but hope i really can eat later ba.. haha..

MISS EVERYONE ESP MY 28-ZOOMATES!! I REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO THE OUTING ON 31ST AND 5TH OK?? MISS YA GUYS LOTS!!

*oh ya.. saw MY DEAR YVONNE on the bus when i was on the way home ytd.. haha.. SO HAPPY TO SEE HER.. chat wif her a lil then i alight le.. hope to chat wif u more when we catch up aiight*

LOVE AND MISS EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!

hmms... i am back.. haha.. these few days me very lazy lo.. haha.. nv go school.. heex.. and i keep on going out wif my friends.. loll.. so let me list down what haf i down from wednesday onwards ok.. haha..

16 August Wednesday:

use com in the noon then went out and meet moshi yitfang and weeshen for movie.. haha.. befoe that went to ichiban sushi for dinner.. haha.. i really love MATCHA ICE CREAM( GREEN TEA I/C).. HAHA.. then after that went and watch AN AMERICA HAUNTING.. this show arh scares u from the starting to the end.. haha.. almost non stop lo.. haha. hmms.. quite nice la.. haha.. i noe moshi was damn scared lo.. haha.. and the 2 guys is so calm as usual.. haha.. then after that went home.. hmms..

17 August Thursday:

hehex.. went to school.. no choice haf to go.. haha.. i cannot pon maths anymore liao.. haha but that day lesson slack lo.. no presentationa and nothing.. the faci is like teacher teaching us those VB codes.. haha.. we just follow and listen lo. haha.. then after that went and makan wif iLi.. haha.. went and ate swenson.. love to hang out wif her.. haha.. we crap alot lo.. hehe.. then after that went home..

18 August Friday:

haha.. suppose to go to school one but i really very tired lo then in the end.. haha.. then weeshen they all bluff me lo. sae what dun go then i also nv go lo.. then they ended up go and i nv go.. sae i ps them.. haha.. loll... hmms.. then meet susanti iLi weeshen yitfang and prabhu after school and we went to nydc for dinner before work.. haha.. i wore prabhu jacket and really looks like i am going to rob the bank.. haha.. that day i am host.. haha. loll. finally doing something different.. heee. hmms.. actually host not bad la.. haha.. but busy that dayy.. haha.. going crazy but luckily that day got "floater" my xiao dajie-- JAYSHER.. wahahaha.. she helps me alot lo.. LOVE HER SO MUCH.. haha.. think she cannot tahan if she saw this.. haha.. hmms..and that night i SUPER HIGH.. haha, dunno why lo.. sae alot of lame jokes la and jump around..haha.. everything sae why i so hyper and they all so tired and dead.. haha.. and that they like all girsl staff lo.. haha.. like girls night and party.. LOLL.. hehe.. hmms..

19 August Saturday:

hmms.. wake up early and went to meet my dear 28 guys for pool.. haha.. vivien lee u ps me arh.. haha.. hmms.. longg time nv play pool wif them le.. got jeenson weiping justin ben jack and guo xiang.. haha.. and ytd i first time playing real snooker.. haha.. very hard lo.. i hardly hit on any balls. loll.. then went and eat dinner wif them at hawker then went off to work.. wanna go kinokuniya buy magazines but cant find any.. haha.. can save money also.. loll.. hmms.. then met my susanti then work together.. ytd we are really short of people.. haha. and 3 people wait side. haha.. and they crowd is like-- LOTS!!.. HAHA.. i walk around non stop lorx.. haha.. but ok la.. still can manage and hot side close damn early ytd.. 1145 i already start doing the utensils.. haha.. then i reach home ard 330.. haha

hmms.. now i slacking at home.. actually got gathering wif my dear W26G mates but alot of people cannot make it then we cancelled lo.. haha.. hmms.. haha.. long time nv used my com liao.. hmms.. dunno why.. this few days feel very sian.. haha.. life is so boring.. haha.. this sentence is becoming my tagline.. haha.. loll. talking on phone now.. tata


*when will my true love appear*
* when am i feeling confused now?*

hmms.. first i will like to thank everyone for concerning me these few days.. i am fine now.. dun worry ok.. thanks for everyone who accompany me these few days.. i really appreciate it alot.. i think everything is settled.. i really appreciate that he understands my situation.. i will like to say a last sorry to him..
this few days i kept going out.. just dun feel like staying at home.. dun feel like being alone.. watch 2 days of fireworks.. i love fireworks alot.. just love it.. but i like the last day one the most.. IS SO BEAUTIFUL.hahal.. i went and watch wif my sistarh viien.. just love to hang out wif her.. haha... these few days i kept going to marina.. kind of scared going there already.. haha.. and seems like i long time nv go school already but today i went.. haha.. kind of miss school.. haha.. if i dun go.. someone will hamtam me.. haha.. hmms..
argh.. i cant go shoppping.. i feel like buying tings already.. i wanna buy alot of tings but no$$.. HAIX.. feel like buying things and enjoy myself for now.. but still wanna get out of singapore for a while.. thats still my wish..

*REALLY THANKS TO ALL MY FRIENDS AND BE THERE FOR ME WHEN I NEED U ALL.. LOVE U LOTS.. FRIENDS FOREVER*


*SPECIAL THANKS TO : VIVIEN SUSANTI PAULINE ILI MOSHI*
* I DUNNO WHAT TO SAY BUT JUST WANNA SAE U ALL ARE THE MOST IMPT IN MY HEART*

hmms. i think a lot these few days.. alot alot.. i never think so much before.. thursday is the day i never feel before and so sad before.. i will not forget that day.. i feel so so down and depressed even now i thinking about it, my tears cant stop dropping.. i dunno why i am doing this? i know the feeling of been hurt but why am i doing this to someone who care and concern for me.. why? why am i doing this? i dunno.. my heart just tell me he is not the one for me... everything happen too fast at the beginning and i thought i can adapt but again i cant... i really dun wanna hurt anyone but i did it.. i really doesnt mean it.. if i have a choice i wish this thing will not happen and i will not let it happen.. i hurt too much people and now is my retribution.. i dun worth anyone to care for me.. i dun even feel worthy to myself.. why? i hate to hurt people but why am i doing now to them? i really hate myself.. i really do.. i cant feel myself anymore.. i never feel so lost of myself before.. even though i noe what i want know and what my true feeling is and who i really want but i still dun feel myself.. i dun worth anything.. i am so worthless.




*who can help me find back myself?*
*is u but u dunno it*
*i am not worth it*

Hmms.. time to update again.. haha.. busy during these few days.. haha… but I went and watch fireworks wif khai ytd.. haha.. fireworks is always so beautiful and of course includes ytd one at the national stadium.. we managed to get a place near the stadium and watch the three mins fireworks display..haha.. there is really a lot of people at kallang.. jams everywhere but I like this kind of atmosphere.. went home after tt as I forget there is a test the next day and I haven even study yet.. haha.. took bus and mrt home.. chat a lot wif him on the way back.. haha.. bought pizza back for my family.. haha.. really have fun eating wif them.. haha

This few days I am really very confused.. a lot of things started popping up in my minds.. a lot of doubts.. I dunno why I have these doubts and it is making me really really confused.. I really need sometime now to settle and rethink what I want.. suddenly I think that everything is too fast and I cant really adapt to it.. I just realize that I am not a fast pace person.. I need time.. I dun wanna sae to much in the blog.. gtg.. lesson starting soon..

hmms.. ytd went basketball with my W26G mates.. haha. who went? susanti pauline weeshen yitfang wing chyewei and susanti bro.. haha.. we met at around 12 plus and started playing.. haha.. it is really fun playing wif them especially when there is my dearest susanti.. haha.. she is very funny and ethusastic.. haha.. play until 2 plus then the girls went to my house.. haha.. ah bang pass me all the stuff he bought for me in hongkong.. haha.. love him so much.. then we talked talked in my room then laughed lo.. haha.. then went down and met the rest of the guys. haha.. went over to lot 1 for meal.. hehe.. then after that we went arcade.. long time nv go there le.. miss there so much.. haha.. played DDR wif pauline.,. haha.. we failed our last stage.. paiseh lo. haha.. really long time nv play liao.. haha.. my standard drop.. loll.. hmms.
after that went over to viien's hse.. chat like an hour plus.. haha... just love to talk to her.. SHE ROX MY LIFE!!.. slept at around 3am haha... ok.. i think i should concentrate on m class den.. c ya.. tata!!

SUSANTI: hmms.. you dun think too much ok.. everything will be fine.. rmb.. i will always be by ur side.. haha.. LOVE U MOST!! really have fun ytd!!. haha.. hope u too..

MOSHI: hmms.. i really hope u like the surprise we gave u.. and now living in hostel le.. must be independent le.. hmms.. i noe u can surely adapt well and now u are in singapore!! haha.. can ask u out often le.. muz go out ok or yam cha.. haha.. LOVE U FOREVER!!

PAULINE: haha.. i just love to talk to you.. its so fun to play and talk to u.. a best fren to play wif and to talk to also.. she gave my advices.. haha. YOU ROX MUAI LIFE!! LOVE U TOO!

VIIEN: haha.. u want dedication right.. i writing to u now lo.. haha.. try and think of what i say.. it may be true ok... i just wanna u to grab ur chance and be happy.. haha. I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR U!! BEST SISTARH!! MUACKZ!!

haha.. seems that time flies.. and i need to update already.. haha.. i am busy this few days so never update.. haha.. the plan goes on from mon to tue but wed is the most unforgettable day.. I LOVE TT DAY ALOT!!

Tuesday 1 August:
i meet priscilla at town.. went and watch lake house wif her.. iI LOVE THAT SHOW!!! omg.. is so touching and i of course cry.. haha.. it is so touching.. i wanna watch again.. haha.. i love the ending as well.. haha.. they met!!! luckily is not sad ending if not i will cry more.. haha.. keanu reeves so handsome!! haha.. hmms.. went nydc for dinner coz pris wanna use my lappie.. kana trick by them again.. give me drink sugar syrup without me knowing.. it is SO sweet!! HAHA.. then after that went to collect my black forest from bakerz inn... hehe..then after that we went home.. long time nv catch up wif pris.. i miss her so much..

Wednesday 2 August:
hmms.. everything went all right in the morning but not in the 2nd break out.. alot of unexpected things happen and made all of us very nervous.. our plan nv goes on smoothly as what we expect.. and there was quarrell occur.. but everything went smoothly after that.. haha.. moshi knows our plan the day before her bdae.. nvm.. i was kind of expect she knows abt it.. haha.. but now everything is back to normal so i am very happy.. NO MORE ACTING!! haha..
After school we went to moshi's hostel.. haha.. we machiam like tourist and sua kus.. her hostel like condo lo.. haha.. wish i can stay there too but i think my house is the best.. the view from her house is fabulous.. can see sea view and also malaysia. haha.. we took alot of photos there.. haha.. after that we went to heeren for dinner.. moshi me susanti wing yitfang weeshen pauline iLi and chyewei went together... actually wanna the vilage but in the end we went to billy bombers.. but went we were deciding on wad to order they say that nothing was tempting them.. haha.. then went to kopitiam instead.. but me susanti and iLi went to nydc awhile to check schedule.. haha..
then after that we went to kopitiam for our dinner.. we order lotsa food.. got stringray kangkong satay hokkian mee indian rojok sotong and more.. haha.. enjoy the food so much.. then after tt we walked to esplanade.. it was very far.. haha.. we took an hour to reach there.. on the way there we talk alot.. i really enjoy talking with pauline. haha.. LOVE U!! then after we reached esplanade.. we took alot of funny and lame pics.. haha.. if u wanna see pls approach me. haha..
we do alot of crazy post especially iLi susanti and pauline.. haha.. stay there around an hour then we went home.. i took cab home coz i haven do my rj!! haha.. i really enjoy myself alot.. haha..

Thursday 3 Aug:
haha.. lessons as usual.. went to moshi's hostel again.. haha.. we chat at her house lo.. then after tt i head back home...

Friday 4 Aug:
hmms.. i met vien after school for a while.. went to town wif moshi and susanti to get our pay.. actually moshi is going for interview at nydc.. but they say they wun take in any more foreign students at the moment.. ke xi.. nvm moshi.. u will surely join in the big family one day de.. haha.. then after tt went and walk awhile wif vien.. we catch up alot.. then after tt i went off to meet my hugger.. haha.. before tt went to nydc and passed jaysher her mango frappacino.. haha.. then went to ps.. haha.. then came back again for billy bombers.. i also catch up alot wif my hugger.. haha.. stay ay billy bombers until they close.. LOL!! took bus home after tt.. and i doze off early ytd.. haha..

later going off for work.. hmms.. tis week i onli work one day onli. coz no one at home.. cannot work so much. but i will work more from next week onwards.. haha.. see ya guys.. tata!!


*you are always in my heart*